Graziella

Just for highlighting that the projects are going sideways and that this is not the best way to approach this problem. I was takin into the office and all colleagues were invited for the "show". He screemed: We have no idea what stress is. He sees nobody "pulling out their hair apart". Nobody's job is threatened He could have been an a$$h and could have demanded why the task wasn't ready yet. He sees the task is not ready yet He sees that the users do not have anything yet Blamed me for underestimating; actually, he "could have" blamed me BUT he ISN'T. Blamed me for NOT highlighting that this isn't a workable solution (whilst I DID two weeks before) He continued this show, until he saw me breaking infront of colleagues, then he asked them to leave. What Happened to ME — In Clear Terms 1. He created a public “spectacle” to assert dominance Inviting colleagues into the room is not normal management practice. It’s psychological intimidation...

 My sensories were on high alert and screeming for the following situations: Be littled Told that it is easy task to do, just an input on excel. Actually he can do it for me and I just insert it. Then asking me what did he say wrong! I didn't say anything wrong right? Invalidation of my feelings Asking me to glow To smile Not to take this by heart Distroy my confidance  Telling me that I am acting unprofessional I am not professional (he said this multiple times) While waters were calm. He told me that he we are his family. He protect us. He goes to lengths for us.  Now he called me "monster", "unprofessional", "unacceptable behaviour" Infront of selected colleague Action Need to find ways to reherse these situations Need to document all of this

 Unless pushed, I stay in comfort zone - Forces need to attack me  - Else I will fit my pillow comfortably and lay down to sleep   This leads me into action and thinking I have two problems Dealing with my shadow at work, which I cannot escape. I must find peace within myself for these shadows. To escape this never-ending loop of endless job seeking and frustration; I need to open my business and dictate my own rules and hire my own personnel.   My shadows at work Stubbornness Everyone in my team is stubborn in different aspects. I feel like I am odd one and they cannot comprehend and neither understand my approach. I am finding this in most people. At work, home, Toastmasters, "friends". I seem to have a different opinion then everyone.  Different opinions that never align  Manipulation My sensory system is on high alert Reaction is quick ...

When I was asked, "Tell me something beautiful that happened to you in the past weeks," I was at a loss and had nothing to share. I became upset, finding it difficult to calm myself down. It is clear that I am blocked. There are too many things that I would like to do, but I cannot pursue them. I don't even know where to start. I want to leave my country, but in a split second, I am bombarded with reasons why I cannot do it - my responsibilities, my home, my job, my pet. I want to start my own business, but in a split second, doubts creep in - what kind of business, who will be my clients? Will I ever break free from these chains?

 Have you ever noticed that you've heard something or at least you thought you heard that phrase or sentence and when you bring this up, you're told that "that wasn't what they had said". You might also choose not to believe so. What you think you heard is your relaity, what they think they heard is their reality, what the speaker said and what the speaker thinks that had delivered is their own perspective.  Do we want to hear what we want to hear?  Are we even ready to hear what we don't want to hear?

They say that "there is always light at the end of the tunnel," but it's important to make sure you actually walk out of the tunnel. While heartache can be incredibly painful, there comes a point where you need to move forward in life. It's okay to spend some time in the darkness, but if it persists for too long, don't be afraid to seek help. Remember, no man is an island, and there are professionals out there who are ready and willing to help guide you out of the darkness. Whether its the relationship that you don't want to stay in, your current job that is giving you more headache than anything else, whether the country you are in, don't stay trapped, do your first step and continue to move forward, you will never know what is out there until you go and experience it yourself.