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Roller Coster

Since the last post, it has been a roller coaster of emotions. High emotions, low vibrations—the feeling is exhausting. At some point, I notice the pattern: it is about to repeat itself from the beginning.

No. NO. I cannot let that happen. Going back and restarting again is an absolute no.

Attention becomes too scattered when I am hit with endless possibilities and options. No. I cannot go back there again.

FOCUS on one task at a time is the only option.

At the School of Practical Philosophy, we were taught to say: “Padam, padam, prati padam”—step by step.

This is the philosophy I want to embed every time I sit at the computer to create.




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