Graziella

 My sensories were on high alert and screeming for the following situations: Be littled Told that it is easy task to do, just an input on excel. Actually he can do it for me and I just insert it. Then asking me what did he say wrong! I didn't say anything wrong right? Invalidation of my feelings Asking me to glow To smile Not to take this by heart Distroy my confidance  Telling me that I am acting unprofessional I am not professional (he said this multiple times) While waters were calm. He told me that he we are his family. He protect us. He goes to lengths for us.  Now he called me "monster", "unprofessional", "unacceptable behaviour" Infront of selected colleague Action Need to find ways to reherse these situations Need to document all of this

 Unless pushed, I stay in comfort zone - Forces need to attack me  - Else I will fit my pillow comfortably and lay down to sleep   This leads me into action and thinking I have two problems Dealing with my shadow at work, which I cannot escape. I must find peace within myself for these shadows. To escape this never-ending loop of endless job seeking and frustration; I need to open my business and dictate my own rules and hire my own personnel.   My shadows at work Stubbornness Everyone in my team is stubborn in different aspects. I feel like I am odd one and they cannot comprehend and neither understand my approach. I am finding this in most people. At work, home, Toastmasters, "friends". I seem to have a different opinion then everyone.  Different opinions that never align  Manipulation My sensory system is on high alert Reaction is quick ...